Mixtape : Dalem x Luar | Anyar x Lawas | Galau x Senang

Sempat tertunda beberapa lama, akhirnya mixtape ini bisa diupload juga.
This mixtape consisted of my favorite songs in every moment of life. Di mixtape ini ada 2 side, yang pertama yaitu Galau Side dan yang kedua Senang Side. Track-track di Galau Side ini lagu favorit saya di saat galau, ada di side pertama karena saya sendiri lebih banyak galaunya daripada senengnya :|

Galau karena banyak hal, dari berbagai macam rasa akibat perpisahan, perasaan "pasrah" karena liat orang yang kita sukai udah jauh di sana, sampai perasaan lonely yang bener-bener kesepian. Lagu My Fake Yellow Fantasy oleh Marching March ini salah satu favorit saya terutama di saat lonely, dimana saat sedang sendiri saya sering berimajinasi dan bermimpi akan kejadian-kejadian yang bahagia di kala saya sendiri sedang sedih, berharap menjadi kenyataan walau pada akhirnya saya menyadari saya hanya bergumam sendirian.

Senang Side, di kala sedang senang track-track ini dapat mengangkat saya setinggi langit. Salah satu dari track di side ini, Contender oleh The Pains of Being Pure at Heart, mungkin bukan lagu "senang". Tapi lirik yang ada justru mengangkat saya ketika seseorang yang selalu merendahkan saya sedang melakukan kesalahan di depan saya, kemudian lagu ini menyugesti saya untuk selalu berpositif-ria. Sulit untuk mengungkapkan, tapi mungkin seperti itulah.

Selebihnya di Senang Side, sebagian besar adalah lagu-lagu saya ketika bahagia karena adanya rasa kasih sayang. Another bullshit maybe, tapi ingatlah bagaimana seseorang membuat hidupmu lebih berarti dan bermakna. Itulah arti kebahagiaan cinta menurut saya.

List : 

Galau Side

01 Air Supply - Goodbye
02 Slank - Maafkan Terlalu Manis ft Nicky Astria
03 Brian McKnight - One Last Cry
04 Broery Marantika - Gubahanku
05 Marching March - My Yellow Fake Fantasy
06 Sarasvati - Danur
07 Flight Facilities - Crave You
08 Laura Marling - Night After Night

Senang Side
09 The Pains of Being Pure at Heart - Contender
10 Landon Pigg - Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop
11 Bad English - When I See Your Smile
12 Pelle Carlberg - I Love You, You Imbecile
13 John Lennon - (Just Like) Starting Over
14 Sarah McLachlan - Angel
15 Peabo Bryson & Regina Belle - A Whole New World
16 Percy Sledge - When A Man Loves A Woman

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Pretending

I'm betting that you won't pretend to be others as good as myself.

Have you ever imagine : Pretending all the times, living the days and nights while trying to be someone you're not ? Living the bullshits and craps all the times ? Mungkin kamu pernah ngerasain hal yang sama. Sebuah kehidupan palsu dimana ga ada "heart belonging" sama sekali.

Gairah kehidupan yang dulu menggebu pun sekarang kaya ngejalanin sesuatu tanpa nafsu & semangat. Nilai positifnya : hidup tanpa beban.

Kalo anak-anak gaul jaman sekarang mungkin nyebut orang-orang kesepian yang selalu "pretending to be someone you're not" itu Lonesome Level-nya Infinity. Bener juga, I felt that kind of feeling when I do pretending.

Everyone just disappeared, you have no place to bring your soul to go to, you have no one to share your pain again or something like that. Lonely akut pokoknya. Jadi, jalan satu-satunya ya itu tadi : Pretending.

Palsu demi kesenangan orang lain..

Kamu naruh harapan besar ke beberapa orang dengan beberapa tujuan berbeda, kaya yang namanya jatuh cinta di pandangan pertama, yahud di awal tapi makin kesini makin iuh. I'm not that perfectionist, believe me. Cuma, ada kalanya kamu bakal jenuh terhadap orang-orang yang ga naruh respek dan cuma ada di kala butuh kamu. What you did : faking things in the first time to get near them, once you've got them, suddenly you knew they didn't respect you at all but you would keep pretending. They did the same things to others kok, that's called "humanity".

Cuma ada satu cara buat enjoy, keep pretending and forget what they did to you, keep faking things, keep doing something that you don't like. Then realize, one day you'll be lost yourself, because now I'm getting tired of losing myself.

Listening to : Jenny Elliasson - Knives in a Cotton Eye

A Vow of Awakening

Hey Autumn, behold through the gray sky
These leaves have nowhere to go
And no one could tell you why
Put yourself out of your mind
To know when we can get into

Hey come, let's sit and talk
We're here, dropping our minds to get into
Tell me, Tell me, just tell me
It's not gonna hurt, no no believe me
Like the smoke of cigars
They just flown away,
Like the magic of the night stars

Everything will be allright
Be tranquil, take your peace into
Don't let every nightmare rot your dreams away
Throw away the pains away from your head
Cos, every pain will wipe our memories out
Caught them up, with your lovely smile
Keep the memories, as well as you keep me warm

You know it's not right, but it's real
And someday, when we drink from this well again..
All night long
You will know what it feel,
Together again
Together

Listening to : Paneye - She Swallowed My Days